Ego Death and Spiritual Awakening

February 23, 2022

"The mind, once expanded to the dimensions of larger ideas, never returns to its original size" - Oliver Wendell Holmes



Holy FU………!!!


The entire valley heard my pre-surrender scream.


Or so I’m told, I have no recollection of it myself.


Ego Death.


Unspeakable. Terrifying, infinite, gratifying, humbling, and usually, tearful.


Complete and absolute: the divine moment when your small, human, mind-identified self is transcended, making way for the birth of a life informed by spirit and your higher self.


I’ve never felt so helpless and helped in my life.


Once you see it, there’s no going back.


Life begins anew. This is the spiritual awakening we are all looking for, why we have incarnated here on Earth, whether we know it or not.


Once you see it, it is inconceivable to recognize how far off we are as a species.


We are using our minds and science to separate and divide, when we could be using our spirits to unify and transcend.


We Zigged a little too much, now we gotta Zag.


We’ve reached peak absurdity in the outer world, now we need to turn in and do the inner work.


There is so much to integrate from an Ego Death experience that we can’t possibly know where to start.


We cannot possibly fit this expansive revelation back “into the mind”. Yet here we are (and I am), attempting to anyway. Where to begin.


Ahhhhh, now you’re hooked.


Thus begins the exploration of reality as it really is, not as we’ve perceived it to be with eyes, nose, ears, and a mind that is so proud of its little self.


Congratulations Neo, you’ve escaped the Matrix.


So we begin our seeking feeling a bit lost, intuitively find our way to the red pill, and by the end of the journey, are the very fabric of the Matrix itself, stopping bullets in thin air.


What cosmic relevance might this hold for us?


Go rewatch the movie as a documentary. Limitless is another goodie. Godzilla vs. King Kong another (you laugh, but I’m serious). Transformation and transcendence are the themes.


This is why we have an inherent love for crystals, birds, and flowers. Crystals have transcended rock-dom with heat, pressure, and time. Birds found a new dimension for Lizards. Flowers added the dimension of color to beautify the plant kingdom.


Transformation and transcendence.


The individual and collective possibilities are more endless and beautiful than we can fathom. The ancient wisdom is coming back: Omniscience, omnipotence, omnipresence.


We can ALL win. No more zero-sum games (sorry NFL, MLB, NBA, NHL).


If you want an example of someone who (I believe) has achieved superconsciousness and thus access to the Akashic records, I might point you towards philomath Robert Edward Grant. Check out his unbelievable variety of contributions towards the nature of reality, mathematics, encryption, data sovereignty, the list goes on and on.


The downloads he receives, and the businesses (rather, causes) that he is leading have incredible value to accelerate our evolution towards collective abundance.


Take heed: these are capacities that cannot be used for selfish purposes. One must commit to absolute purity of mind, body, heart, and spirit, and extension of the unifying force of Love.


No small feat.


Anyway, I digress.


If you’re reading this, it’s not a coincidence, an Ego Death is probably what you are looking for. One small recommendation for you – recognize that an Ego Death is only the starting line for what creation has in store for you.


The Uni Verse (One Song) is ready to sing and harmonize through you.


But, are you ready? Free will is a thing.


If you are ready, seek out an experience with expert guidance and prepare to meet your true self.


5-MeO-DMT and Ayahuasca retreats are a good place to start.

Written by Jonathan De Potter,

Founder of Behold Retreats


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"The mind, once expanded to the dimensions of larger ideas, never returns to its original size" - Oliver Wendell Holmes



Holy FU………!!!


The entire valley heard my pre-surrender scream.


Or so I’m told, I have no recollection of it myself.


Ego Death.


Unspeakable. Terrifying, infinite, gratifying, humbling, and usually, tearful.


Complete and absolute: the divine moment when your small, human, mind-identified self is transcended, making way for the birth of a life informed by spirit and your higher self.


I’ve never felt so helpless and helped in my life.


Once you see it, there’s no going back.


Life begins anew. This is the spiritual awakening we are all looking for, why we have incarnated here on Earth, whether we know it or not.


Once you see it, it is inconceivable to recognize how far off we are as a species.


We are using our minds and science to separate and divide, when we could be using our spirits to unify and transcend.


We Zigged a little too much, now we gotta Zag.


We’ve reached peak absurdity in the outer world, now we need to turn in and do the inner work.


There is so much to integrate from an Ego Death experience that we can’t possibly know where to start.


We cannot possibly fit this expansive revelation back “into the mind”. Yet here we are (and I am), attempting to anyway. Where to begin.


Ahhhhh, now you’re hooked.


Thus begins the exploration of reality as it really is, not as we’ve perceived it to be with eyes, nose, ears, and a mind that is so proud of its little self.


Congratulations Neo, you’ve escaped the Matrix.


So we begin our seeking feeling a bit lost, intuitively find our way to the red pill, and by the end of the journey, are the very fabric of the Matrix itself, stopping bullets in thin air.


What cosmic relevance might this hold for us?


Go rewatch the movie as a documentary. Limitless is another goodie. Godzilla vs. King Kong another (you laugh, but I’m serious). Transformation and transcendence are the themes.


This is why we have an inherent love for crystals, birds, and flowers. Crystals have transcended rock-dom with heat, pressure, and time. Birds found a new dimension for Lizards. Flowers added the dimension of color to beautify the plant kingdom.


Transformation and transcendence.


The individual and collective possibilities are more endless and beautiful than we can fathom. The ancient wisdom is coming back: Omniscience, omnipotence, omnipresence.


We can ALL win. No more zero-sum games (sorry NFL, MLB, NBA, NHL).


If you want an example of someone who (I believe) has achieved superconsciousness and thus access to the Akashic records, I might point you towards philomath Robert Edward Grant. Check out his unbelievable variety of contributions towards the nature of reality, mathematics, encryption, data sovereignty, the list goes on and on.


The downloads he receives, and the businesses (rather, causes) that he is leading have incredible value to accelerate our evolution towards collective abundance.


Take heed: these are capacities that cannot be used for selfish purposes. One must commit to absolute purity of mind, body, heart, and spirit, and extension of the unifying force of Love.


No small feat.


Anyway, I digress.


If you’re reading this, it’s not a coincidence, an Ego Death is probably what you are looking for. One small recommendation for you – recognize that an Ego Death is only the starting line for what creation has in store for you.


The Uni Verse (One Song) is ready to sing and harmonize through you.


But, are you ready? Free will is a thing.


If you are ready, seek out an experience with expert guidance and prepare to meet your true self.


5-MeO-DMT and Ayahuasca retreats are a good place to start.

Written by Jonathan De Potter,

Founder of Behold Retreats


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