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5 MeO DMT (also known as the God Molecule) is a tryptamine that is derived from the venom of the Sonoran Desert toad. The psychedelic experience is powerful in its spiritual and mental intensity. Only thirty minutes long and otherworldly, this medicine takes the body and spirit into higher realms of consciousness. Commonly used in South America, this plant medicine is expanding more and more into the modern Western world.
Bufo is being studied by world renowned research centers such as John Hopkins and Maastricht University for the treatment of depression and anxiety and increasing overall life satisfaction.
As of the last few years, Bufo is on the radar in the mainstream culture due to celebrities such as Mike Tyson, smoking the toad venom and talking publicly about ego death and returning back to love. But how do we get to this point, where the ego is no longer needed? What is essential to know before entering the ceremony to prepare mentally and physically?
Plant medicines such as ayahuasca and psilocybin are much more commonly used and more easily accessible to the public, 5 MeO DMT retreats are not everywhere and have been more underground.Though similar in structure and makeup to ayahuasca and psilocybin, the effects of Bufo are very different.
The knowledge on this miraculous toad Bufo Alvarius is still being unveiled. Information from the people who partake in it is not so easy to find. More knowledge, is more power, which is the point of this article, to have an open dialogue about 5 MeO DMT.
I asked myself what I wish I knew before I partook in this miraculous experience that altered the course of my existence. I have compiled a list of things to inquire and ponder over, so those who are interested in raising consciousness can feel more secure, and safe in themselves.
From a few of my ceremonies I have gained the tools to surrender more and more to this medicine and reach the healing power of the mystical Bufo Alvarius toad. These lessons are simple yet valuable and have come from firsthand experience. I hope they provide you with guidance and shed some light on this transformative medicine.
I wish I knew beforehand how much surrender was really required when partaking in a retreat of this nature. When we latch onto this current reality we lose the possibility of magic and entering other realms. The most important thing when doing Bufo is to not try to get anywhere, or to control emotions or feelings. In a safe container with a guide, there is room for expression, no need for repression or suppression.
When we suppress emotions, they stagnate in the body and get stuck within us energetically. This later on causes disease as everything that occurs is psychosomatic. During emotional intensity, and spiritual elevation, allow everything to flow through you and pass. The more you resist an emotion or sensation, the more tension will build within you. There will naturally be an inner conflict if you cannot surrender.
Some of the methods I have used to release control is re-centering myself through the vehicle of the breath and genuinely allowing whatever emotion that arises to exist then go. The breath is the anchor into the present moment, and in the now, everything is possible. Allowing is synonymous with accepting. The people who cling to this reality and their ego limit themselves. Let it go by not holding onto your past but letting the moment be what it is totally. On this journey, releasing control is vital to spiritual expansion.
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Before doing 5 MeO DMT, I read online about its effects and watched a documentary about its properties. My mind was filled with what I thought or imagined my trip would be like. Though it is beautiful to be prepared through information, know that your trip is unique because it is happening through the filter of your mind.
Your mind that holds your specific database of memories, ideologies, desires, and fears. The trip you heard about Mike Tyson or Chelsa Handler or Hunter Biden, is not going to be your trip. Your journey is your own.
It is normal to be nervous right before a ceremony, and anxiety and excitement occur as similar sensations in the body and it is best not to read too deeply into it. It is good to have an intention instead of an expectation. When having an intention, you have a ‘why’ or the reason you are doing the medicine, and something you are willing to explore, if it does or does not happen you still remain open.
In owning the uniqueness of your experience and holding your intention closely in your heart, there is a letting go of expectations and pre dispositions. Before I began my first ceremony, a friend had a session right before me, which I witnessed intently. It looked like an exorcism mixed with a full body orgasm. He was crying in both joy, pain, and wonder.
I developed a sort of expectation for a peak experience like his, thinking it would be so great to feel such a range of emotion and let go of so much mental baggage. My intention was to explore my mental darkness and find the inner light.
The opposite happened. I did not cry, or release stored emotions. I did not rage against my past. Instead, I floated into the cosmos. In this reality, I did not stop laughing for forty five minutes. Most of my friends had cried or screamed or raged, but I could not stop laughing hysterically.
My guide told me he had never seen a reaction like this before. I did not expect it. I thought I would be releasing pent up rage, or be in a state of ecstasy, but instead I truly felt the cosmic joke of life. That all the things I took as so real and heavy, were not.
There was a lightness of being. I am happy that I allowed myself to express what I genuinely felt, once I vaporized the smoke venom, my mind let go of preconceived notions. I met what was within me, rather than what I expected to happen. This dropping of expectations is part of the process of surrender, to let the moment be what it is and experience it fully.
I wish I knew before my first ceremony, how peace can be an option to heal. Not everything is about unraveling past traumas, or analyzing childhood memories, or releasing addiction. Even if you have intense problems you are coming in with the intention of clearing, there are other routes to healing.
You do not need to go deep into your wounds in order to transcend them, and you do not always have to suffer in order to grow. Bliss is available in self development and can be a form of catharsis. Seeing a new way of life outside of old models of self indulgent pain and sabotaging behaviors is possible.
During my third experience, it was one of the most profound experiences I have had. It happened when my ego was stripped, it is what I like to call entering the void. It is a space of stillness and there is a strong undercurrent of peace. In this space there is no past or future, time does not exist and neither do the problems that come with humanity. There is a feeling of nothingness, and it is not depressing. Nothing contains everything.
There was no unraveling my heavy burdens. There was no feeling of the enormity of the human predicament. The void was beyond humanness, it was divinity, it was formless. The wisdom of knowing that we are more than the body mind complex. Inside us is space that nothing can touch or disrupt. It rests in a state of total calm.
The state of mind you are in is very important because it sets the tone of the ceremony. Though it is natural to have fears or worries, it is best not to attach to any of them. Preparing the mind through meditative practices is essential. At Behold Retreats, our world trained facilitators practice mindfulness and energy work. They are equipped with the wisdom to help you regulate your nervous system and prepare a quiet sound mind for the psychedelic experience.
Particularly, deep breathing through the nose with longer exhalations can work for clearing the head space. If the mind is clouded with many thoughts, simply watch as thoughts arise, but do not take any of them as too real. Just witness them without aversion or attachment.
You can also prepare by journaling down your intentions, fears, hopes and prayers. The act of writing things down is a form of transmuting thoughts. Putting them down onto paper, can be an act of release from the mind to the material world. 5MeO DMT is beyond thought forms, logic, or rationality, and the quieter the mind is, the more we can allow the sense of the beyond to seize us.
Personally, Bufo was one of the most life experiencing changes I have had. I was taken out of my ego and into the space of eternal love, the foundation of existence. How do we take the lessons we have learned from such a life altering experience and bring it into everyday reality? What is there to do coming back down to Earth? So what is there to do with this information?
What happens after the ceremony ends is as crucial as doing the plant medicine in the first place.The ceremony often shows us our negative thought patterns, our predispositions, it can dissolve our ego, and make us see behind the veil. We are peeling back the layers of self which are not us. This includes the protection mechanisms, the trauma responses, the roles we play to fit into a vertical society.
When we can release this, it loses its importance. We focus on our inner truth and we integrate this experience into the fabric of daily life through the way we think, speak, and conduct ourselves. We want to be better than we were yesterday and with a heightened awareness we can be. We want nurturing relationships and self love, and we can obtain it. Bufo brings us to this place of goodness, though the psychedelic journey lasts only thirty minutes. It’s what we do after it ends that truly counts.
Behold Retreats is the leading choice for safe, legal high-end retreats with 5-MeO-DMT (Bufo Alvarius), ayahuasca, and psilocybin. Behold offers a 7-Week Coaching Program for optimized preparation and integration. Behold also offers both private and group retreat in Mexico, Portugal, Costa Rica, and the Netherlands. Reach out to request a 1 on 1 discovery call.
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